a different side

the longer we know that person,

the more different side if her/him is shown

these days, i've seen lots of people's true colours.

it's scary! haha

some of them, look very the 'shy-shy' type,

but then "PAP", he/she.. 

pot...pet...pot...pet.... 

(as Kelantanese said which is refer to noisy)

another friend of mine

is very cheerful,

couldn't leave a smile being with her/him

but then another scene, there he/she is crying because of her pet died..

me?

i have many colors, different of it with different person..

:) usual or unusual?

but i think nobody knows the true one except for my parents

who have been there for my 20 year life..

"luv u ma&pa"

moral: do not judge the people before you know them, hope that's related.. haha.

aku mencintaimu..

orang selalu kate xminat xbley amek medik..

btowl ka?

perkara nie sudah lama dinyatakan lagi-lagi

sejak aku sendiri masuk dunia medik ini

walaupun selepas tiga tahun menjalani marathon mengejar pelajaran

dunia medik yang semakin berkembang ini

aku sendiri masih lagi tertanya2 adakah aku sudah MULA meminatinya?

di sebelah hatiku mengtakan 'tidak, memang kau tidak layak untuk dunia mulia ini'

disebelah lagi, hati aku mengatakan 'ya, kalu tidak masakan kau boleh bertahan hingga

hari ini?'

pada awalnya,

MEMANG aku TIDAK meminati dunia medik,

yang penuh dengan kesibukan duniawi,

takut dengan kealpaan

tentang tanggungjawab.

TAKUT DENGAN KEALPAAN?

itu alasan lapuk der

tapi kini,

itulah perkara yang aku bincangkan disini

tentang pembahagian hati aku.

tapi aku senang,

melihat ramai pesakit yang dengan penuh harapan datang 

kepada doktor agar diberi walau secebis harapan

namun doktor memberinya beribu harapan dan penyelesaian.

atas dasar ini, aku MENYUKAINYA.

menolong orang dengan ilmu yang telah dipelajari.

dan...

sekarang...

aku mula MENCINTAIMU..

i/m now trying hard to love medic [Sumber:google]

ego?

i HATE when i look desperate..

i know, i know.. kinda childish huh? but yep, that's me..

eventhough my heart says, 

"owh, that's what i want, i'm sure with it! i should go for it!"

but still, inside me, there's an 'ALIEN' that against it and says back,

 "uh, please! don't look too desperate lor. 

you should make them come for you, 

why did you and them want it together,

but it's only you that shows it?"

btw, i know.. this is what people called EGO(it's in malay, not sure in english :P)

okay, there is this mr. ego inside me, stands high enough and can rule my heart, and sometimes my brain!

doesn't know how to get rid of it.. 

i like to hold the principles that says, they want it, they ask for it,

not me going around and ask them whether they want it or not.

PLEASE DON'T FEED THE EGO

is it OKAY to have this principles?

teruji kesabaran aku der..

I WILL not forget this day..

the first time SCOLDED by those people!

huh..

reason as small as an atom,

yet,

her voice [WOW!], as loud as to shout to the alien from other galaxies (enough hyperbolic?)

enough with rubbish grammars and vocabs,

angriness best shown with own language!

to that person!

nak marah pown der, marah slow2 der, xperlu la nak buat satu --- dengar der..

memalukan betul la..

taw la kau tu der hierarchy atas la pada aku satu stage

tapi xbermakna aku nie boleh ditengking2 mcm tue yep der..

memang der aku ingat muka kau

aku ingat muka orang yang main tengking aku suka hati

bajet nak halau aku keluar?

blah la der, bukan ko sorang punye tempat der

fuhh.. teruji betul aku, nasib baek aku puasa, ada jugak ketahanan nak sabar.

p/s:entry ini sudah ditapis agar mengikut kesesuaian untuk semua peringkat umur

hyper mode

hyper mode? why3? 

don't ask, i'll tell~

those feelings, uhuh, THOSE feelings.. 

when you meet SOMEONE.. you'll feel that..

don't know whether it is the right feeling..

that SOMEONE whom you feel HYPEREXCITED when you meet them

yep, i'm feelin' that.

hyper in the sense that you feel the world evolved 

only around you.. in the middle of it...

haha.. huh, but still my heart can't take any more hurt..

it'll break like glass.. now, it is full of plasters around it, waiting for scars to heal..

in love wif arabic songs!~

warning:entri ini agak panjang *coz dis is a song with translation ^^v* 


Fares - albi nadak (male version)My Heart Called You For you
Leek, ana milk leek
ta'ala arrab dommeni, makhtag
eleek, o rokhi feek
ya hob 'omr ana 'omri kollo hakhyesho leek

hawak howa el khaya,
wenta elly ana, ba'ashek hawa
kan albi monaah
agmal malak, yekoon ma'ah

yah albi nadak wetmannak teb enta wayaya
yah ba'd esneen shok wa khaneen alak eek hena ma'aya
yah dommeni leek, danta habibi hayaty leek
we ha'eesh 'omri 'ashan 'ineek
wa 'omri fadak

yah albi nadak wetmannak teb enta wayaya
yah ba'd esneen shok wa haneen alak eek hena ma'aya
yah dommeni leek, danta habibi hayaty leek
we ha'eesh 'omri 'ashana 'ineek
wa 'omri fadak

Eh, akhtag le eh
law konti ganby ma'aya daiman kolly eh
ya dana min zaman
makhtag le alb yehess beya o ahess beek

hawak howa el haya,
wenta elly ana, ba'ashek hawa
kan albi mona
agmal malak, yekoon ma'a

yah albi nadak wetmannak teb enta wayaya
yah bad esneen shok wa haneen alak eek hena ma'aya
yah dommeni leek, danta habibi hayaty leek
we ha'eesh 'omri 'ashan 'ineek
wa 'omri fadak

yah albi nadak wetmanak teb enta wayaya
yah ba'd esneen, ba'd elsneen alak eek hena ma'aya
yah dommeni leek, danta habibi hayaty leek
we ha'eesh 'omri 'ashan 'ineek
wa 'omri fadak


English translation
I'm for you...
come closer and hug me... 
I need you...
For you, I'm for you... 
and my soul is in you... 
o love of my life, 
All my life... 
I'll live it for you... 


Your love is the life... 
and you're the one whose love I love... 
My heart used to wish... 
that the most beautiful angel would be with it... 


yah, my heart called you... 
and wished that you'd be with me... 
yah, after years...
of longing and yearning I find you here with me.. 
yah, hug me to you... 
my love, my life is yours... 
and I will live my life just for your eyes and I wlil sacrifice my life for you... 


what, what will I need?... 
if you were by my side with me always... 
tell me what?... 
yah, for a long time I've... 
needed a heart to feel me I'd feel it in return 


Your love is the life... 
and you're the one whose love I love... 
My heart used to wish... 
that the most beautiful angel would be with it... 


yah, my heart called you... 
and wished that you'd be with me... 
yah, after years... 
of longing and yearning I find you here with me..
yah, hug me to you... my love, my life is yours... 
and I will live my life just for your eyes and I wlil sacrifice my life for you...